Good morning my sweet ones (or good night 
)
It's 4 am here and I'm not the least sleepy. Bet I get a pretty "drowsy" day tomorrow. But that's OK - I'm not going anywhere so I can always doze off on the couch. Do you know, when I first came to the board it was the very first time I could say I was awake in the middle of the night and not feel ashamed by it. Before that I always felt like the odd one. Everyone I knew was in bed at a descent time and was up by early morning to go to work.
I've always been kind of a night owl, but after I got sick I've had really problems with insomnia. And of course I had to rest sometimes, so I maybe stayed in bed in the morning to read or doze a bit or whatever - as long as I could relax. But I never felt I could tell anyone outside my immediate family. They always made me feel I did something wrong when I couldn't sleep, and only lazybones stayed in bed to the lat morning.
So I kept quiet and often tried to hide that I didn't sleep at "normal" hours. And then to come to the board and discover I wasn't the only one living like this. It made me so happy. The problem wasn't me, but the illness made this to me. What a relief it was to know. No one here gave me a second glance if I posted in the middle of the night. Quite a few others do the same thing. And to sleep in was OK too.
When I think of this I realize how much difference the board and you all have made in my life. I'm no longer embarrassed to tell I need meds 24/7 to be able to function. Before I never told anyone and if I had to take some I snuck them in the mouth when no one was watching. Even hubby was not allowed to see me swallow a pill. And he knew what I needed and often went to the pharmacy for me.
Silly little things, I know. But I had a hard time always being the "oddball" and I was really sensitive to any reaction/look I got. Some was interpreted in my own mind, but mostly you had those who told me they always was in bed by 10.30pm and never ever would take as much as a Tylenol, regardless of how much pain they were in. Well - you have truly liberated me from thoughts like that, and now I quite like being the weird one.
Ok - that was typical night thinking.
Of course you need your coffee/tea. I'm not Mark, so no Starbucks from me, I'm sorry.� But I'll give you
the next best, I think. Freshly made coffee from my own coffeemaker. It makes each cup separately and it smells and tastes like fresh-ground coffee. It also
have a milk heater/foamer, for anyone who needs something more. And of course it makes hot water and milk for us tea lovers. Green, white, brown tea, I have
them all - and some fruit ones too. Enjoy!
How are you all today? What will your day be like - busybusy or do you join me on the couch?
It's a bit early for food, but I'm sure someone will come after me and make your brekkie. I'm not much of a kitchen-snooper.
But music I can do. What about Amy McDonald's This is the life?
I may get some visitors in the afternoon. My oldest boy and a girl friend of his (not girlfriend) with her little daughter. I haven't seen her in years, and I know she's had a pretty rough life for a couple of years there. But she's back on her feet and lives a good life with her daughter and I'm looking forward to meet her again and meet her daughter for the first time. I've made sure I have some kids crackers and crayons and coloring books so she won't get too bored. The box with all the toys are still in the shed after we moved, and it's too heavy for me to carry inside.
Well - I need to try to get some sleep. Even if I'm not sleepy. Maybe if I put on a boring movie... When hubby's at home I always fall asleep when we watch movies.
Have a wonderful day with as little pain as possible and lots of joy and happiness. Take care!
)
It's 4 am here and I'm not the least sleepy. Bet I get a pretty "drowsy" day tomorrow. But that's OK - I'm not going anywhere so I can always doze off on the couch. Do you know, when I first came to the board it was the very first time I could say I was awake in the middle of the night and not feel ashamed by it. Before that I always felt like the odd one. Everyone I knew was in bed at a descent time and was up by early morning to go to work.
I've always been kind of a night owl, but after I got sick I've had really problems with insomnia. And of course I had to rest sometimes, so I maybe stayed in bed in the morning to read or doze a bit or whatever - as long as I could relax. But I never felt I could tell anyone outside my immediate family. They always made me feel I did something wrong when I couldn't sleep, and only lazybones stayed in bed to the lat morning.
So I kept quiet and often tried to hide that I didn't sleep at "normal" hours. And then to come to the board and discover I wasn't the only one living like this. It made me so happy. The problem wasn't me, but the illness made this to me. What a relief it was to know. No one here gave me a second glance if I posted in the middle of the night. Quite a few others do the same thing. And to sleep in was OK too.
When I think of this I realize how much difference the board and you all have made in my life. I'm no longer embarrassed to tell I need meds 24/7 to be able to function. Before I never told anyone and if I had to take some I snuck them in the mouth when no one was watching. Even hubby was not allowed to see me swallow a pill. And he knew what I needed and often went to the pharmacy for me.
Silly little things, I know. But I had a hard time always being the "oddball" and I was really sensitive to any reaction/look I got. Some was interpreted in my own mind, but mostly you had those who told me they always was in bed by 10.30pm and never ever would take as much as a Tylenol, regardless of how much pain they were in. Well - you have truly liberated me from thoughts like that, and now I quite like being the weird one.
Ok - that was typical night thinking.
Of course you need your coffee/tea. I'm not Mark, so no Starbucks from me, I'm sorry.� But I'll give you
the next best, I think. Freshly made coffee from my own coffeemaker. It makes each cup separately and it smells and tastes like fresh-ground coffee. It also
have a milk heater/foamer, for anyone who needs something more. And of course it makes hot water and milk for us tea lovers. Green, white, brown tea, I have
them all - and some fruit ones too. Enjoy!
How are you all today? What will your day be like - busybusy or do you join me on the couch?
It's a bit early for food, but I'm sure someone will come after me and make your brekkie. I'm not much of a kitchen-snooper.
But music I can do. What about Amy McDonald's This is the life?
I may get some visitors in the afternoon. My oldest boy and a girl friend of his (not girlfriend) with her little daughter. I haven't seen her in years, and I know she's had a pretty rough life for a couple of years there. But she's back on her feet and lives a good life with her daughter and I'm looking forward to meet her again and meet her daughter for the first time. I've made sure I have some kids crackers and crayons and coloring books so she won't get too bored. The box with all the toys are still in the shed after we moved, and it's too heavy for me to carry inside.
Well - I need to try to get some sleep. Even if I'm not sleepy. Maybe if I put on a boring movie... When hubby's at home I always fall asleep when we watch movies.
Have a wonderful day with as little pain as possible and lots of joy and happiness. Take care!
USA
without cable.
Virginia
First let me
have a 
and then I'll share my thoughts this morning.
But with Mosken here that all changed. I could take my meds when
I needed them without sneaking into my bag and then rushing to the bathroom so nobody would see. I could talk about being up almost every night or staying up
late to take my last pain pill, so it lasts me till the morning. Gosh, the freedom of being with someone who understands! 
I think I'm even worse than you : I have a pliable cane that I will get out of my
bag only when I'm out of my street! But I have support from my hubby and daughter and that matters most to me. They never comment on my taking pain meds
or being so tired I have to take to bed during the day. My daughter has never known otherwise!
I'm not even sure this should be in Smalltalk!! 
before heading off to the supermarket to buy some much needed goodies. Hubby is
working all the hours the day brings and doesn't even have time to go shopping with me. He also has a mood to match. 
UK
and my pal and I are fishing. I shall give you all some thoughts whilst I am sitting peacfully on the river bank.
) to meet people. You come as you please, in the mood that you are and at any
time you feel for. We do talk about everything and anything in the Norwegian daily too... Food and coffee is a major thing, but also the weather, the laundry,
a hobby, kids, music, a wife or hubby, the news or whatever makes you feel good or bad that particular day.
And the flash light under the blanket....very familiar. But my little sis had the annoying habit to tell on me every time we had an argument about anything -
or she just was in a foul mood. 
Mosken
... uh hum.... could the daily "starter" please take
care of the essentials in the morning?
) What will I do
without Starbucks today- I won't be able to go to work and I have to drive to my alt. doc. in PA- so... if I don't make it... we know who to
blame!
Dutchie
